In your hands now, you hold a piece of me.
And you forever will, so long as you don't let me go.
I am not too far from you now, even though you can't see me.
I am here with you, every time the wind blows.
You can't see my smile, but I am happy.
You can't feel my touch, but I am warm.
If you ever need my reassurance,
You can find me in the rain storms.
In your hands now, you hold me.
I will never go astray.
Keep your grip tight
Keep me close to your heart.
Don't let me slip away.
Kiss the sky Mommy,
I feel you.
Love,
Peyton Pryce Murray.
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Holding On
There's always that person that we find our way back to. It doesn't matter how many times they hurt us, or lie to us, or make us an option when we make them a priority... we can never fully walk away. Even when we know it is probably the best thing to do. So with that, here is a little something I thought of today while listening to the silence of my empty room. Enjoy
Sometimes I wish my heart could tell
When someone doesn't mean me well
When someone has selfish intentions inside
When someone wants to see me cry
Sometimes I wish my heart could tell.
Sometimes I wish my mind would know
When someone is putting on a show
When they're making up lies to get their way
When there is no truth in what they say
Sometimes I wish my mind would know
Sometimes I wish my eyes could see
When someone is making a fool of me
When they use me as a piece in their game
When they're laughing in my face with no shame
Sometimes I wish my eyes could see
Sometimes I wish my feet would show
That I have the courage to get up and go
That I don't have to sit here if I choose
This seems to always be where I lose
Sometimes I wish my feet would go
It has always been hard for me to let go of the familiar. Sometimes unfortunately, that is the same thing that always holds me back...
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Sometime...
It was such a gorgeous night out yesterday, so I decided to go out and do some writing. It had been a while since I had the energy or the focus to do so. Here is a poem I came up with. I hope you all enjoy it.
Sometimes I forget
Sometimes I forget
Though I mustn't be reminded
That this thing we call love
Can leave me hopeless and blinded
That my heart is misleading
And my mind is misguided
Sometimes I forget
And I don't want to be reminded.
Sometimes I forget
Not only I experience pain
That even when my sky is sunny
There is someone that sees rain
When I don't get out of it what I want
There is someone with no gain
Sometimes I forget
We all experience pain.
Sometimes I forget
I shouldn't try to be perfect
Even with a thousand eyes watching me
It just doesn't seem worth it
And when everyone sees a failure
My reflection doesn't always object
Sometimes I forget
That nobody is perfect.
Sometimes I forget
It's okay to cry
Keeping it bottled up
Leaves me hurting inside
Hiding the way I truly feel
And no one knows why
Sometimes I forget
I shouldn't be afraid to cry
Sometimes I forget
And I don't want to be reminded
That it's okay to forget
And occasionally be blinded
It's okay to feel pain
And okay to have a cry
It's okay not to be perfect
And not to know why.
Sometimes I forget
But it's okay to do
I'm sure somewhere,
you forget too.
You forget too.
Monday, June 20, 2011
All Too Often
All too often, as an adult, we forget. We forget that it's not always about the clothes, the food, or the discipline (although these are all very important). Sometimes we forget. We forget that it's difficult for a child to approach us with something that they know we will not want to hear. We forget the courage that it takes for a child to tell us his/her first crush, or that someone is bullying them at school. We forget the energy it takes for a child to hand us the remote because we called them from across the house even though the remote was sitting at our feet. We forget that just because a teacher doesn't call us to say our child is misbehaving that doesn't mean we shouldn't call to see how well he/she is doing.
All too often, as an adult, we forget. We forget that our child is at risk to getting jumped on his/her way home from school because they are wearing the latest fashion. We forget that our child will get pregnant or get someone pregnant, even when the timing seems completely off. We forget that God answers prayers when we are consistent in going to him more so than when we call on him after everyone else seems to have failed in helping. We forget that our child will have goals that he/she may not reach and even though we think we can protect them from that, we can't. We forget that our children will grow up one day and walk out of our house with the possibility of never looking back. We forget that he/she has fears that we may never understand because things are not the same as they were before.
All too often, as an adult, we forget. We forget that in out tangents of screaming, it was our child that asked to speak in the first place. We forget that the broken glass our teenage threw out of anger can be cleaned up and gone as if it never happened. We forget that our preteens are like sponges and the things and we say and do around them can have life long effects. We forget that we once were kids and we know how it felt and how hard it was. We forget that we are imperfect and even though we want our child to believe we are superwoman, we are not. We forget to admit that we make mistakes too and can relate to the many mishaps he/she has and possibly will have.
All too often, as an adult, we forget. Amongst everything else that goes on in our adult lives, we mustn't forget three things. We mustn't forget to listen to them. We mustn't forget to love them. We mustn't forget to forgive them. These three things, no matter what the issue is, are sure ways to help alleviate any and every ache and pain. All too often, as an adult, we forget.
And all we can hope is that they don't forget us.
All too often, as an adult, we forget. We forget that our child is at risk to getting jumped on his/her way home from school because they are wearing the latest fashion. We forget that our child will get pregnant or get someone pregnant, even when the timing seems completely off. We forget that God answers prayers when we are consistent in going to him more so than when we call on him after everyone else seems to have failed in helping. We forget that our child will have goals that he/she may not reach and even though we think we can protect them from that, we can't. We forget that our children will grow up one day and walk out of our house with the possibility of never looking back. We forget that he/she has fears that we may never understand because things are not the same as they were before.
All too often, as an adult, we forget. We forget that in out tangents of screaming, it was our child that asked to speak in the first place. We forget that the broken glass our teenage threw out of anger can be cleaned up and gone as if it never happened. We forget that our preteens are like sponges and the things and we say and do around them can have life long effects. We forget that we once were kids and we know how it felt and how hard it was. We forget that we are imperfect and even though we want our child to believe we are superwoman, we are not. We forget to admit that we make mistakes too and can relate to the many mishaps he/she has and possibly will have.
All too often, as an adult, we forget. Amongst everything else that goes on in our adult lives, we mustn't forget three things. We mustn't forget to listen to them. We mustn't forget to love them. We mustn't forget to forgive them. These three things, no matter what the issue is, are sure ways to help alleviate any and every ache and pain. All too often, as an adult, we forget.
And all we can hope is that they don't forget us.
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Graduating Class of 2011
To everyone in the graduating class of 2011:
Many of you have come to a part in your life of drastic change. For some, this change is from middle school to high school, high school to college, or college into the real world. Regardless of where this change lies, it is inevitable.
Please take advantage of the opportunities that will present themselves in the near future. These opportunities can include meeting new people, networking to form a wider group of resources, and even starting fresh on a new path. Anything from this point on is possible. If you go into this new journey without expecting the unexpected, success will be very hard to reach. You must keep an open mind. Try everything for yourself and make your own judgements.
We've all come to a point sometime in our life where we have felt that we can do it alone. As encouraging and confident as this may be, it is close to impossible. This is not to say that we should consistently rely on others, or that it is impossible to be independent. In fact, I encourage you all to find independence in the upcoming journey. But in this process of moving on, do not forget where you came from or the lessons you were taught. Take everything you have learned from school, friends, and family with you along this journey. You can only hope that you have learned enough.
Go forward to do great things and become great people, but never forget.
So, to the class of 2011... CONGRATULATIONS!
Many of you have come to a part in your life of drastic change. For some, this change is from middle school to high school, high school to college, or college into the real world. Regardless of where this change lies, it is inevitable.
Please take advantage of the opportunities that will present themselves in the near future. These opportunities can include meeting new people, networking to form a wider group of resources, and even starting fresh on a new path. Anything from this point on is possible. If you go into this new journey without expecting the unexpected, success will be very hard to reach. You must keep an open mind. Try everything for yourself and make your own judgements.
We've all come to a point sometime in our life where we have felt that we can do it alone. As encouraging and confident as this may be, it is close to impossible. This is not to say that we should consistently rely on others, or that it is impossible to be independent. In fact, I encourage you all to find independence in the upcoming journey. But in this process of moving on, do not forget where you came from or the lessons you were taught. Take everything you have learned from school, friends, and family with you along this journey. You can only hope that you have learned enough.
Go forward to do great things and become great people, but never forget.
So, to the class of 2011... CONGRATULATIONS!
Sunday, June 12, 2011
NKOTBSB Tour in Fenway 2011
You may have heard of NKOTBSB... and for those of you who haven't, it stands for N.ew K.ids O.n T.he B.lock and B.ack S.treet B.oys (clearly sharing the first B between the two names). They are currently on tour and their style has a little bit of something for everyone!!
The group performed in Fenway Park on June 11th with a guest performance and opening act from Jordin Sparks. She sung some of her best known singles, as well as a few combinations from other female artists. She also sung her new single "I Am Woman" and had the crowd jumping!!
Check it out:
What do you think?? I personally was feeling it.
They have already had two tour dates here in Boston, but if you haven't gotten a ticket to one of their shows, I strongly recommend you get a hold of some. You will not be disappointed!!
Take a look at their upcoming tour dates and locations:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/NKOTBSB_Tour#Tour_dates
The NKOTBSB is definitely a Summer 2011 must see!!
Peace and Love <3
The group performed in Fenway Park on June 11th with a guest performance and opening act from Jordin Sparks. She sung some of her best known singles, as well as a few combinations from other female artists. She also sung her new single "I Am Woman" and had the crowd jumping!!
Check it out:
What do you think?? I personally was feeling it.
I was lucky enough to get a hold on some free tickets!! Considering it was my first time ever in the stadium, I was super excited to see what all the hype about Fenway Park is about. Trust me, it's definitely and experience. :) Check out the view from my seat:
Not Bad huh?? :)
The stadium didn't seem full at first, but by time the rain storm started, you could definitely tell the NKOTBSB was a SOLD OUT concert!! Check out the crowd:
They have already had two tour dates here in Boston, but if you haven't gotten a ticket to one of their shows, I strongly recommend you get a hold of some. You will not be disappointed!!
Take a look at their upcoming tour dates and locations:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/NKOTBSB_Tour#Tour_dates
The NKOTBSB is definitely a Summer 2011 must see!!
Peace and Love <3
Friday, June 3, 2011
New Job: Gauranteed Adventures Ahead!!
Today was my second day at my new summer job: BC Campus School.
When we heard the Patriots were having their last practice in the BC football stadium, we knew we had to find a way for our students to meet them. As we packed up the wheelchairs for the 5 students in our classroom, we realized we didn't have a plan for how we would get close to the Patriots. Luckily, today was nice enough outside that the 45 minutes we spent running around Alumni Stadium didn't affect the students. We tried gate after gate, and after many failed attempts at batting our pretty eyes, we got a tip from a reporter.
"They are about to leave from the back."
With that, we took off running with our 5 students and their wheelchairs, through the parking garage (thankfully there were no cars), up the garage ramp (sticking close to the right side in a single file), and to the back of Alumni Stadium where we caught some of the players walking to their cars. As the students smiled and shook hands with the players, I was suddenly star struck when I heard a familiar name.
"Hi, I'm Tom."
I looked over and Tom Brady was standing beside me smiling. What was there for me to say but, "Come on, who doesn't know that you're Tom Brady. How are you?" I introduced my students to him and he was nice enough to pose for some photos with everyone. (He's much cuter in person, I swear!!)
Take a look at some of the photos:
When we heard the Patriots were having their last practice in the BC football stadium, we knew we had to find a way for our students to meet them. As we packed up the wheelchairs for the 5 students in our classroom, we realized we didn't have a plan for how we would get close to the Patriots. Luckily, today was nice enough outside that the 45 minutes we spent running around Alumni Stadium didn't affect the students. We tried gate after gate, and after many failed attempts at batting our pretty eyes, we got a tip from a reporter.
"They are about to leave from the back."
With that, we took off running with our 5 students and their wheelchairs, through the parking garage (thankfully there were no cars), up the garage ramp (sticking close to the right side in a single file), and to the back of Alumni Stadium where we caught some of the players walking to their cars. As the students smiled and shook hands with the players, I was suddenly star struck when I heard a familiar name.
"Hi, I'm Tom."
I looked over and Tom Brady was standing beside me smiling. What was there for me to say but, "Come on, who doesn't know that you're Tom Brady. How are you?" I introduced my students to him and he was nice enough to pose for some photos with everyone. (He's much cuter in person, I swear!!)
Take a look at some of the photos:
Brady was so down to Earth and so very handsome.
He felt very comfortable with the students; everyone couldn't stop smiling. :)
When we left, a few reporters asked us some questions about what made us go down to the stadium. Check out the article that was written up from ESPN: http://es.pn/j9At4C
How's that for a 2nd day at work?? :)
Friday, May 27, 2011
Prom Season 2011
Today, I helped my younger brother get ready for his Prom. He is a senior at MATCH High School in Boston. I am so proud of him. He is an all around amazing kid and a blessing to have as a sibling.
Check out some of the pics:
Me and My Brother!!
My Brother and his date Damia!!
Stepping out in Style!!
To everyone out there going to their prom tonight and in the next few weeks: Have as much fun as you can. In most cases, you only have one Prom. You have to make sure you live it up to the fullest. Be safe, Be smart, and Enjoy yourselves!!
Congratulations Kenney Kenney!!
Send your prom pics to kaylar3@gmail.com if you want to be featured in the Prom Season Blog!!
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Rules to Having an Ex
Not everyone can have an ex... But if you do, here are some key rules to follow for the most effective aftermath:
1. It doesn't matter how much fun you guys have together, or how many times you hang out with each other: Understand that it is never going to be the way it was when you originally started dating. And stop bringing up the past in the form of reminiscing. Erase that image from your mind, it's no longer realistic.
2. An ex can be a good person to have around... For those of you who are looking to better yourself for future relationships, you can look to your ex for what you might be able to change. But you have to take this advice with a grain of salt and keep in mind that he or she may say things out of spite, or simply because they still want you for themselves. So ultimately, you have to decide who you want to be, and who you want to be that person for.
3. Stop leading each other on. Stop sending the "What are you doing?" text messages as its only a way to keep tabs and to make sure that they arent playing 'happy couple' with someone else. Do you truly care what he or she is doing or are you just being nosey? Most of you won't admit that you are just being nosey.
4. Do not talk about your ex to the person you are currently trying to date. They don't care. Even when they ask "how was your last relationship," the only response they truly want is whether it was good or bad. Nothing more. They don't care about how many things she/he bought you on anniversaries or how many times you guys broke up and went back out, nor the reasons behind that. If you are trying to move on, then move on. Leave the past in the past.
5. Don't take trips down memory lane. You will find most of the time, you are traveling alone. Especially if you still have feelings for your ex and they are not mutual. You will bring up something that once made you smile, and chances are, your ex has some repressed memory about that event and will make you feel twice as bad for bringing it up in the first place. Don't do it to yourself.
6. If your ex says they have moved on. They probably have. It's not okay to be bitter towards them about their decision to move on, nor is it okay to bring up the past in an attempt to confuse them more. This will only make them resent you more and they will possibly decide to remove you from their life altogether. If you still want to be in their life, be smart: Don't piss them off.
7. Except the fact that its over. Sometimes you stick around because you hope things will go back to "normal." If you have decided to stay in your ex's life, make it be because you truly care about them as a person and what they are able to contribute to your life. Not because you want to get back with them or ruin their chances of anyone else trying to date them. That's the worse reason to stick around.
8. Stop comparing everyone to your ex. No one is going to be an exact replica and it is a waste of time to look for that. If things were so great with your ex, you would still be together... Except each new person as a chance for a fresh, new start.
If there are other things that you feel should be a rule to having an ex, please share your wisdom below in the comment space.
Peace and Love
1. It doesn't matter how much fun you guys have together, or how many times you hang out with each other: Understand that it is never going to be the way it was when you originally started dating. And stop bringing up the past in the form of reminiscing. Erase that image from your mind, it's no longer realistic.
2. An ex can be a good person to have around... For those of you who are looking to better yourself for future relationships, you can look to your ex for what you might be able to change. But you have to take this advice with a grain of salt and keep in mind that he or she may say things out of spite, or simply because they still want you for themselves. So ultimately, you have to decide who you want to be, and who you want to be that person for.
3. Stop leading each other on. Stop sending the "What are you doing?" text messages as its only a way to keep tabs and to make sure that they arent playing 'happy couple' with someone else. Do you truly care what he or she is doing or are you just being nosey? Most of you won't admit that you are just being nosey.
4. Do not talk about your ex to the person you are currently trying to date. They don't care. Even when they ask "how was your last relationship," the only response they truly want is whether it was good or bad. Nothing more. They don't care about how many things she/he bought you on anniversaries or how many times you guys broke up and went back out, nor the reasons behind that. If you are trying to move on, then move on. Leave the past in the past.
5. Don't take trips down memory lane. You will find most of the time, you are traveling alone. Especially if you still have feelings for your ex and they are not mutual. You will bring up something that once made you smile, and chances are, your ex has some repressed memory about that event and will make you feel twice as bad for bringing it up in the first place. Don't do it to yourself.
6. If your ex says they have moved on. They probably have. It's not okay to be bitter towards them about their decision to move on, nor is it okay to bring up the past in an attempt to confuse them more. This will only make them resent you more and they will possibly decide to remove you from their life altogether. If you still want to be in their life, be smart: Don't piss them off.
7. Except the fact that its over. Sometimes you stick around because you hope things will go back to "normal." If you have decided to stay in your ex's life, make it be because you truly care about them as a person and what they are able to contribute to your life. Not because you want to get back with them or ruin their chances of anyone else trying to date them. That's the worse reason to stick around.
8. Stop comparing everyone to your ex. No one is going to be an exact replica and it is a waste of time to look for that. If things were so great with your ex, you would still be together... Except each new person as a chance for a fresh, new start.
If there are other things that you feel should be a rule to having an ex, please share your wisdom below in the comment space.
Peace and Love
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